Wednesday, June 18, 2025

2016-06-09 Joy Fear Love Fight and Hope

 

JOY

In my heart I feel joy

Joy at the thought of your smile

Joy at your acceptance of my faults

Joy at the love you have promised

Joy at the possible future we may share

FEAR

In my mind I feel fear

Fear that this is an illusion

Fear that a bad of infinite power will come in response to this infinite love

Fear that I will not live up to your expectations

Fear I may fail losing all I have

LOVE

Yet there is love

Love of family

Love of my daughter

Love of you

Love of God

FIGHT

So I will fight

Fight to succeed

Fight to defend

Fight for my daughter

Fight for your love

HOPE

For you are my hope

My salvation

My life

My love

2013-03-31 Faith

 

Faith, the belief in a power, force, deity, person or action that it will prevail no matter what the odds or obstacles.

 

Faith cannot be quantified.  It is not measurable unless it is a pass or fail grade.  It either "is" or "is not".  So why is it important?

 

Faith is part of the Yin and Yang of Life.  It and Hope make one side of the circle.  Doubt (also known as Disbelief) and Despair are the other half.  From these all of human emotions are derived.  Love and Hate, Joy and Sorrow, appreciation and contempt are all derived from those base pairs.

 

Faith is neither positive or negative just as its opposite, Doubt is also neutral.  The Disbelief that something will or will not occur; that others are correct or not; is neither positive or negative.  It is when those aspects are combined with either Hope or Despair when they gain energy. 

 

This is why enemies will always want you to think they will win and you will lose.  Enemies fear their opponents having Faith.  That is why enemies try to crush Hope.  Because an enemy that has Faith that they can prevail and uses Hope to sustain that Faith is almost impossible to beat.  Thus the phrase "...win the hearts and minds..." drives its true power from changing an enemies perception of what to have Faith in.  This is where Integrity comes in.

 

Are you strong enough to stand against Doubt and maintain Faith to keep your Hope alive even when all the forces around you are against you?  If you can then you have Integrity.  Your Faith gives you strength to survive the punishments brought against you by those that do not believe as you do.  The Hope that through your example others will see your Faith to be true. 

 

It is my belief that this is what the history of Jesus is about.  It is about Jesus' Integrity to hold his Faith even when he drank the poison, even when he was whipped, stoned and crucified because of it.  Jesus held the Hope that that would lead others to his Faith.

 

Even if you are not Christian this is relevant and should be celebrated as an act of courage that has rang out through time.  A positive example of how Faith in Hope can change the perceptions of millions.  That is worth more than anything I can think of.  Because the message was one of Love, Tolerance, Acceptance and keeping Faith.  Celebrate it, be inspired by it for that is what He would have wanted.

 

Happy Easter everyone.

2013-06-23 Edges and Courage

 

How does one weigh emotion?  I do not know.  When you have a person threaten your ability to see your daughter in front of her.  Causing her pain and tears.  You know that if you react all you will do is fuel the fire of your attacker and cause the one you hold dearest more pain.  So what do you do?  Do you remind the person that the actions are painful to the child?  I did.  I was also reminded that the person is in Legal control and hinting at using that to reduce my time with her.  When called a liar about how you feel and what you believe to be true in front of her with the person telling her that "I have been holding this in..."  To be told in so many words that my time and efforts are for nothing in front of her.  The person saying that some of the information came from her.  The she says it did not.  The person then says to me as if she was not there that "her story has changed..."  The child clinging to the person crying begging her to stop.  The person not understanding that the child is begging the aggressor to stop attacking the other one she loves.  If I attack back will it make matters worse?  I believe so.  I mention that this was exactly what the courts educational program said not to do.  The person agreed with feral tenacity.  Does seeing this cause me to believe that any further actions will be fruitless?  Yes it does.  All this vehemence because I stated I did not like or respond well to being ordered  to appear.  Perhaps the pervious weekends incident coaled the fire. 

               I wonder if obeying the previous rules then having the person's other come to my car placing it hands in my window, in my face, trying to act the good sportsman who just won a game if there were no hard feelings.  This after my express request and the person's agreement to the rules to prevent conflict.  The other still does this.  So I am polite and honest.  I  am calm and clear in my rejection of this offer and express my feelings toward the other.  No cursing, derogatory or threats of action were used.  Just clear basic common words and a request that the other back away from me.  I have never seen this as a game where "no hard feelings" could be used.  So the others tactless, careless and unthinking action is the impetus, I think so.  Should I have accepted this offer?  No, I do not think so.  I have always held dear the rule of not associating with people who demonstrated lack of character, honor and integrity in my eyes.  In my eyes the person and the other will never be trustworthy or persons whom with I would spend my time again.  Hence the creation of the rules, lack of conflict through lack of contact.  It seemed a prudent course at the time.

               Now I am here.  wondering what to do next.  So, at a loss I asked her what she wanted.  How would she want me to proceed?  She wants an apology from both parties in front of her.  So she can believe and have faith in the person and myself.  I agreed because that trust is more important than  my pride.  I'll be damned if I know how this will turn out.  How much do I sacrifice to demonstrate the greater path?  I guess I know the answer.  I also figure those who truly know me also know my answer,  I will sacrifice everything for her even if I must bleed out all I am and have.  All I can pray for is that one day she will see the person for whom they are and still love them.  That she will see the other in the same light.  That she will then understand me for who I am.  In this, she will learn who she is and what it will take to be herself.

Tuesday, March 19, 2024

Common Sense

 There is no such thing as "common sense".  The cultural ethnic and personal diversities are too numerous as to exclude the possibility that either social or cultural norms will be known by all.

There are at this time approximately:

8 Billion people on the planet

195 Countries

7 Continents

2 Hemispheres

4,200 Religions

The Math:

8,000,000,000 x 195 x 7 x 2 x 4200 = 9.1728e+16 variations possible. 


While all things are possible, not all are actually probable.

Friday, May 14, 2021

 I have been thinking about loss and the past, of regret, of expectations, of realities and truths this evening.  "You can't change the past."  "The past is the past." "Dwelling on the past solves nothing."  "You must let go."  You must move on." Lots of words.  I guess for some easy to do.  Not so much for me.  My father once told me my greatest weakness is my caring heart.  I disagree.  It is my inability to let go.  If I could let go then I would not be hurting from the past now.  It would not fester.  It would not keep bringing me back.  Loss past the "now" would not be a thing.  I envy those that can do that supposedly simple thing.  My heart and/or mind will not work in that way.  I have tried changing it for years.  I have sought guidance.  Professional advice.  Spiritual enlightenment.  While all have valid and in theory perfectly accurate solutions none have stuck and removed this flaw in me.  A flaw in my character?  Mind?  Mental illness?  Sometimes I wonder if this is Hell and death releases you from this reality into the next.  The question I have is does the energy you expend in this life attract repel or propagate in the next?  The energy does not just disappear.  Your compounds break down but the atoms do not.  They can separate and recombine but into what?  That energy that electrifies the mind goes somewhere.  That is your soul in my opinion.  It carries the frequencies and amplitudes that powered your mind long past the minds physical compounds decay recombining into dirt.  That is the where, what and how of what lies beyond physical death that bothers me.  When I die, will this flaw keep me from passing on?  Will that electric force become magnetic holding me?  I don't know.  I certainly don't want to go pass this flaw on to whatever my energy becomes next.  That scares me enough to not want to leave this reality now and keep fighting to defeat/correct/modify this flaw so it is no longer a fear.


In the end I would be a "better" person if I could correct this flaw.  I certainly would be less stressed with other drivers and rude people. That would be a good thing.  "Be like water." Bruce Lee said.  I think he stole that from some more ancient teaching.  "LIsten to the river." from the book Siddartha.  "Go with the flow." I guess would be a more modern reference.  All accurate.  All much easier said than done; at least for me.  

All of this reminds me of the use of the word "average".  Only 1% of 100% is actually average.  The other 99% is either above or below "average".  I hate that word.  A majority range is a more useful use of a statistic.  x% of y is useful for patterning data.  Enough mental BS for today.  I'm tired.  Good night all.

Thursday, September 24, 2020

 

The Origin of White Privilege

By

Scott Smiley

 

                The topic of “white privilege” has troubled me for some time.  At first I denied it could exist in today’s society.  Federal Laws should be preventing this type of thing from happening.  The magnified loud speaker of social media would bring anyone who attempted to assert any type of privilege over another would be tarred and feathered.  But upon reflection I feel I was wrong.

                Before some of you start shouting either way I offer up some things to consider.  Firstly the power that allows privilege must be identified.  Per (Merriam-Webster) “2a. possession of control, authority, or influence over others.”  I am focusing on the United States of America primarily.  That said, it began even earlier than the finding of North America by the Europeans (The Chinese also claim the found America but that is still in debate).  Leif Erikson a Norse Viking, found North America in approximately c. 1000 CE (Groeneveld).  In 1492 Christopher Columbus an Italian, found the Bahamas (Robert Roy Britt).  Amerigo Vespucci another Italian, found America in 1502 (Robert Roy Britt).  America is named after Vespucci (Robert Roy Britt).  The first settlement was Jamestown founded by the English under a grant to the Virginia Company by Queen Elizabeth in 1602 (americaslibrary.gov) .  Then Christopher Jones an Englishman Captained the Mayflower to what is now called Massachusetts carrying the Pilgrims in 1620 (Brooks).  Other than the Native American’s all of the “explorer’s” were of European decent.  The next question is who held power in that time?  Well with the exception of a few Queens it was mostly held by men.  In particular Christian white men if history is to be trusted.  Women were considered more property than anything else and had few, if any Rights.  Most of these men were of European or British decent making them Caucasian thus “white”.   When this is combined you find only Christian Caucasian Males (referenced as CCM going forward) held the majority of power.  Power being defined as the wealth and authority to create and enforce societal rules.  Just as a note, south of the equator men still held power they were just not Christian or Caucasian. They were just men and that is another story for another time.

                So, now let’s focus on North America.  The American Indian was quickly run over by these colonists.  The definition of an invader is “to encroach upon” and “to spread over or into as if invading” (Merriam-Webster).  These colonists were ruled by CCM’s for the most part.  Women could not own land.  Only land owners could vote.  The land was “granted” by royals from Europe.  This was the culture.  This was their way of life.  This trend continues through slavery, emancipation and the Civil Rights movements.  1492 through 1962 470 years of momentum of Power pushing its way forward originating from traditions and culture originating from Christian Caucasian Men, White Men.  Some statistics from the US Census Bureau:

 

2017 Population:

   Ethnic Group                     %            People              Economic Inertia              %            % Over $35k

White Non-Latino:           58.5%    186,809,170        $5,770,586,745.00            73%             73.9%

Latino:                                  18.1%      55,704,217           $874,316,548.00             11%             18.1%

Black or African:               13.4%      41,239,586           $684,265,226.00               9%             13.4%

Asian:                                      5.8%      17,849,970           $547,764,285.00               7%             78.7%

Two or More Races:          2.7%        8,309,469         Not broken out in data from published census

American Indian:                1.3%        4,000,855         Not broken out in data from published census

Native Hawaiian/

Pacific Islander:                  0.2%           615,516         Not broken out in data from published census   

 

 

 

 

Household Income:

 

 

 

Percent distribution

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Median income (dollars)

Race and Hispanic origin of householder
and year

Number
(thousands)

Under $15,000

$15,000 to $24,999

$25,000 to $34,999

$35,000 to $49,999

$50,000 to $74,999

$75,000 to $99,999

$100,000 to $149,999

$150,000 to $199,999

$200,000 and over

Estimate

WHITE ALONE, NOT HISPANIC

84,681

8.5

8.9

8.6

11.6

16.4

13.0

16.0

8.0

8.9

68,145

BLACK ALONE

16,997

19.9

12.7

11.6

14.1

15.7

9.8

9.5

3.5

3.1

40,258

ASIAN ALONE

6,735

9.0

6.6

5.8

9.6

14.5

12.9

16.3

10.8

14.6

81,331

HISPANIC (ANY RACE)

17,318

12.0

11.1

11.3

15.0

18.1

12.6

11.5

4.5

3.8

50,486

 

From this data it is easy to see that there are more “White” people and households than other ethnicities.  The income economic data is interesting.  78.7% of the Asian makes more than $35k while only 73.9% of White are in the same range.  The remaining two are as follows at $35k and above: Hispanic at 18.1% and Black 13.4%.  So, this disproves that the larger group will automatically suppress the smaller ones.  This does prove the Ethnic culture can affect its economic performance.  This begs the question is why does the one Ethnic group Black have such a disparity?  The CCM’s have treated Asian and Latino just a poorly as Black with the exception of slavery.  Does this one issue and how it has been handled cause this level of disparity?  “Yes” is the only answer I can come up with.  It is not the one I was looking for.

 

While I have a strong feeling that the Native American Indian (NAI) data will be similar to Black, I don’t have the data to substantiate the claim.  I also have the feeling that ever since the NAI’s have fought and won fights about casino’s and banking this growing economic inertia will change the NAI’s future statistics to be similar to Hispanic and Asian.  Time and more data will tell if my feelings are correct.

 

If the reaction and treatment of slavery is the causation is the initial trend then is it still the cause?  Since CCW’s still control 73% of the economic inertia which I believe also transfers to political power then again I believe the answer is “yes”.  This begs to ask what have CCW’s done that is consistent since the early 1900’s and what is different?  This also asks a bunch of social questions I have no idea of what they are or the answers.  Also, I ask why after 100 years the Black ethnic group has not begun to change.  Lot’s more questions I don’t have answers to.  Lastly, since the Hispanic, Asian and (I believe) the NAI groups are creating economic inertia that is opposite the Black group; at what point do we stop blaming the past cause of slavery and CCW’s actions and start looking at the Black social culture’s own responsibility for their future?  At some point there must be a tipping point in my mind.  I question if that point has already past or has yet to come.  Again more questions I don’t have answers to.

 

The original intent of this paper is to determine the existence of and origin of White Privilege.  My conclusion is “yes” it exists.  It began hundreds ago in Europe and was transferred here by the CCW’s.  It has been perpetuated through time via the economic engine created by the CCW’s who through this engine controlled the political and religious power in North America.  I also believe that this same economic inertia that enables power will be found in every other ethnic region on the planet.  The ethnic group that holds economic power controls political power and in most cases religious as well.  Now let the arguing, name calling and outrage begin. 

 

Monday, April 23, 2018

As usual my journey has taken another jink to the side in a direction I was aware of but not really wanting to go.  Fortunately the good of the situation jumped up at me and reminded me that unplanned trips can create some of the best adventures and memories. 

So, the next time life bumps you off the path you were planning on look around.  Perhaps there is a reason.  Perhaps there is good you just haven't seen yet.  So before you start cussing and lamenting your fate, be mindful (Yes, Buddhist saying can have relevance.) of what you affect and what effects are caused by this change.  You may just be surprised.